‘I had lost all my body awareness’

An interview with Jana who received her diagnosis at an early age and has had to put up with a few setbacks since.

Jana is an open and amiable person – her charming smile gives the 27-year-old a carefree and candid appearance. But Jana’s life is anything but carefree: although she went through a marathon of surgeries, her lipedema came back. Now, her arms are affected, too. In this interview, the student tells us how she has been since this setback.


How did you become aware of the lipedema illness?
Even in my childhood, my weight and physical shape were an issue. At the age of 10 or 11, I took part in a nutrition and exercise programme organised by a health insurance company. Up to that point, everyone was saying: ‘That’s baby fat, that’ll change. You simply have to move more and eat healthily, and then everything will be alright.’ A proper odyssey began.

When I started getting my period, I continued putting on weight around my torso. I didn’t even realise I had any problems in my legs. During PE and volleyball training, all the difficulties were blamed on my weight. I had lost all my body awareness. I thought that’s just how it feels if you’ve got ‘a bit of extra weight on your hips’. I didn’t have any comparisons to a ‘normal state’ (anymore). Up to the age of 19 or 20, I kept having countless consultations with various doctors, dieticians and sport experts – and I even went to life/crisis counselling in my teens. Something was clearly wrong about me, after all.

How did it go from there?

One day, my mum came home from work in the evening and a work colleague had told her about this TV report she’d watched – it was about the subject of lipedema, it’s symptoms and treatments. We watched this report together which didn’t only feature experts but also a woman who suffered from lipedema – and for the first time, I felt like someone appreciated and understood my struggles. From that day, it did take another year until I got my diagnosis as the marathon of doctor’s appointments continued.

When did you get your diagnosis?

I got my lipedema diagnosis back in 2011. I even had this confirmed by two different doctors as I had gone through so many ups and downs and just wanted to know for sure. So, it’s lipedema. That was a shock, on one hand, but a relief on the other. I finally knew that it wasn’t all because of something I’d done wrong.

Jana is currently in Ireland. In her luggage, she’s got a black and skin-coloured flat knit option.

What annoys me is not knowing which part of my body is in fact lipedema and which one isn’t. Which part can be influenced and which one cannot.

What did your therapy look like then?

In the first two years after my diagnosis, I received manual lymph drainage (MLD) once or twice a week. Since my liposuction in 2013, I can do without the MLD. I’ve been able to replace it with exercise in compression tights or by going swimming. Since the diagnosis, I’ve also been wearing my compression tights on a daily basis. I only keep it off at home where I can lie down at any time, if I need to.

You already had liposuction done back in 2013. How did that go?

After a consultation in 2013, I immediately knew: ‘I would love to have that done!’ No statement by the doctor about the surgical process and no photos of wounds could give me any sense of fear or concern. My mum came along to that consultation and while the information made her jaw drop, I had an incredible feeling for the first time in an eternity: ‘Someone understands, someone is able to help me’. I would’ve happily lied down on the operating table right there and then. The really painful thing about it was the money we had to gather. Our health insurance refused to cover any of the costs.
Back then, three operations were scheduled and carried out:

  1. 1st op: outer thigh and hips (September 2013)
  2. 2nd op: inner thigh and knee (October 2013)
  3. 3rd op: front of the thigh (November 2013)

I eagerly anticipated every single surgery date. From one operation to another, and particularly in the time after that, quite a lot did indeed change and improve.

Were the symptoms gone after that?

After the operations, the pain in my legs was massively reduced. I’d say about 95% of the symptoms disappeared. I was finally able to ride a bike again. Before the operations, I didn’t really realise that I actually found riding a bike really difficult. Suddenly, I ‘floated’ across the ground on my bike. I had found a whole new motivation for all things sport and hobbies. I didn’t even mind so much that, despite everything I’d gone through, I couldn’t quite do without the compression tights. Apart from the new, amazing feeling in my legs, my general wellbeing and self-esteem had hugely changed for the better.

Besides singing and playing the piano, Jana loves travelling the world.

But then I suddenly started having symptoms again on the entire back of my leg, right up to my bum. This sharp, tingling and often localised pain was all too familiar and I knew – it was back … along with the question: ‘Is that my own fault?’

Your Instagram account says ‘2018: setback’. What does this mean exactly?

In the years after the liposuction, things weren’t quite as easy as I’d hoped for, unfortunately. It wasn’t so much because of the liposuction, but just because life happened – sometimes, life just writes its own story and you can’t really control it. After I’d successfully completed my vocational training in summer 2015, I started my degree. This allowed me to have an even more flexible everyday life in terms of diet and exercise. I finally discovered a new fighting spirit for sport again. For the first time, in early 2016, people said to me: ‘Wow, did you lose weight? You look different somehow!’. And the best thing: they were right! I could feel the weight loss, too, and saw it on my clothes. I was on my way to a new life – to my new life.

That’s what I thought, anyway … In May 2016, there was an unexpected death in my family, unfortunately. Since then, quite a lot has changed. My exercise fell behind completely and my diet wasn’t exactly a priority anymore. A healthy daily routine? Wasn’t an option initially. I stopped paying attention to my lipedema. Unfortunately, I also started putting on weight again.

It was early 2018 when everything changed again. I suddenly had a strange feeling in my arms, from one moment to another. A feeling of tightness and sometimes a little tingle. At first, I thought there might be a problem with my nerves, maybe due to all the desk work. Lipedema in my arms? It didn’t even cross my mind. My nerves were all intact, however. But then I suddenly started having symptoms again on the entire back of my leg, right up to my bum. This sharp, tingling and often localised pain was all too familiar and I knew – it was back … I had new waves of lipedema that sometimes even kept me up at night. So this time, all the areas that hadn’t been operated were affected. A total setback for me! And along came the question: ‘Is that my own fault?’

How do you deal with this setback? Who is by your side? Who is helping you?

My greatest pillar of strength is my mum. Even if she can’t empathise with everything as she doesn’t suffer from lipedema herself, she still wants to do everything in her power to make me feel better. Initially, it was really difficult for me to accept this ‘new’ condition. That’s why I looked for a new way to get in touch with others who have the same problems. I found out about an entire community that had evolved on Instagram. I wanted to join it and created a new Instagram account. However, this also meant that from now on, I was going to be dealing with the lipedema subject openly and honestly. To this day, I still find that difficult. Nevertheless, I feel like I’m in good hands in this community and, most importantly, that people understand my struggles.

Do you want to have further surgery done?

Definitely! I’d almost forgotten how nasty bursts of lipedema feel and how unpredictable they are. As they almost drove me to despair, the subject of liposuction wasn’t far off. I’ve got a new consultation appointment in February 2019. As I can sometimes be quite impatient, I’d love to be put right onto the operating table. My greatest wish is to be completely ‘cured’ after this and to get rid of all the symptoms. However, it mustn’t be overlooked that such an operation is ‘only’ the beginning of the change. Body and mind go together, after all. It’s a tedious process, on all levels.

What do you wish for in terms of lipedema?

I would love for those with lipedema to not be left alone so much. A lot of lipedema sufferers are still pigeonholed – because of doctors’ ignorance, but also because of other people’s ignorance. Along with this goes an endless chain of emotional scars which even lead to the loss of your sense of femininity and your own body awareness. And those who want to undergo surgery, because it’s the only healing method, ultimately have to come up with their own ways to pay for it. An expensive new life which has to be paid for with a lot of money as well as with your own scars.


Thanks a lot for the open and honest conversation!

‘Is it my fault that the lipedema has flared up again?’ – Jana couldn’t help but ask this question after the realisation.


Our #LipödemMutmacher

Jana’s Instagram profile deals with the lipedema disease. With her posts, she gives the community insight into her life. Lipedema often plays a central part in these posts. Jana is young, a student and loves life – and while the illness is very demanding, she won’t let it keep her from reaching her goals. That’s why Jana is part of the #LipödemMutmacher initiative. Through this, she shares her challenges, her worries and her happy moments

The initiative #LipödemMutmacher is aimed at women who share their daily challenges with lipedema. By collecting posts from different people who are affected by lipedema, we’re creating an information platform that is unique of its kind.

Jana is a #LipödemMutmacher

In her Instagram posts, she shows all her facets – what annoys her, what she likes, what drains her energy and where she gets her courage from.